penningtron wrote: Thu Sep 08, 2022 7:05 am (code can be like solving puzzles)

Yeah, that was probably the only reason why I stayed at that job for five years. I don't write code for my job now (I now look at other people's code and their software development process) and definitely miss it sometimes.

penningtron wrote: Thu Sep 08, 2022 7:05 am It just comes down to a lot of the other BS, like sitting thru 4 hours of meetings of idiots shouting at each other

Certainly, the team surrounding you is extremely important. Meetings never go away in big corporations, and there are plenty of people at the company in which I work that probably hate their job primarily because there are one or two idiots in close proximity to them.

penningtron wrote: Thu Sep 08, 2022 7:05 am Could be worse: I have yet to have to take a job from a gun manufacturer, tobacco marketer, or Uline (all pitched to me at one point).

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Spotted an old unhappy crush while out and about and a bunch of stuff welled up. loooool bs

I had planned to get up at 3 am to watch cricket, and was also on call for the funeral home. I took a call for an out-of-town death around 1:30 am, and when all was said and done with that it was about 2:45 am, so I just made my tea and hunkered down. The streaming service I watch England cricket matches on here in the US was still running the horribly lopsided match between Australia and New Zealand, and I didn't notice that until about 3:15 am. I went online and saw there was a rain delay, so I watched the tediousness of Australia's manhandling of the Kiwis until it ended, then stayed up another hour or so until it became evident that there would be no play before I had to go to work. So I squeezed in about 90 minutes of sleep and here I am fresh as a daisy. Oh, and I guess the Queen is nearing death, as well.

Met an old professor at work whom I used to like quite a bit. Pretty much just said hi and went back into work mode. Can at least say something more, right? I literally flee conversations. I lack the natural habit and confidence so especially when unannounced and in a limited timespan like this I react like I'm being attacked and look for an out, which I happened to have here. So tired of being this way. I was angry for hours afterwards.

kokorodoko wrote: Met an old professor at work whom I used to like quite a bit. Pretty much just said hi and went back into work mode. Can at least say something more, right? I literally flee conversations. I lack the natural habit and confidence so especially when unannounced and in a limited timespan like this I react like I'm being attacked and look for an out, which I happened to have here. So tired of being this way. I was angry for hours afterwards.

Don't beat yourself up. Somebody has to be "that guy", I'm certainly that guy often enough and it has helped to just think in the abstract "I don't hate that guy, somebody has to be that guy" and accept myself. You are a good writer. Maybe consider finding his email and writing him a brief note "outing" yourself for your propensity to social awkwardness and saying you appreciated seeing him. It might make you feel better. I have found that this helps. I often write people after moments like this, friends and people I've just met recently alike. You may find that they don't perceive you as critically as you perceive yourself, and people generally really appreciate when a person makes themself vulnerable by expressing something like that. Anyways, just a thought. Not downplaying what it can feel like, believe me I have done and felt this often enough myself, and it is hard not to dwell on it. Hope you feel better now.

jimmy spako wrote: Fri Sep 09, 2022 2:32 pmYou are a good writer.

Thanks!

Thanks for the suggestion as well, tho I probably won't do it. In this case I don't really care as far as what that person might think, it's purely concerning myself and how limited I feel by this. I'm also feeling pretty good about myself lately so it was also a reminder that "fuck, yeah there's this thing".

However:

jimmy spako wrote: Fri Sep 09, 2022 2:32 pmHope you feel better now.

I do! The rest of the day took my mind off it, thankfully.

DaveA wrote: Sat Sep 03, 2022 5:53 pm But, because I live in Florida, even the coolest stuff on Youtube is now often briefly tainted by ads for Ron DeathSantis. Some rough juxtapositions!

I've been getting a lot of far right political ads on Youtube too, but for Australia and New Zealand-based sewers of disinformation. Only 20% of the world's population is considered to be living in a free country now. Maybe it will soon enough be none, as it seems totalitarianism is ironically popular with the public.

Anthony Flack wrote:

DaveA wrote: Sat Sep 03, 2022 5:53 pm But, because I live in Florida, even the coolest stuff on Youtube is now often briefly tainted by ads for Ron DeathSantis. Some rough juxtapositions!

I've been getting a lot of far right political ads on Youtube too, but for Australia and New Zealand-based sewers of disinformation. Only 20% of the world's population is considered to be living in a free country now. Maybe it will soon enough be none, as it seems totalitarianism is ironically popular with the public.

Kinda feel like most English speaking countries and much of the western world will be dealing with some form of this now.

Ads for DeathSantis are a special kind of distasteful, though, because he's a localized/statewide blight that the whole country and much of the free world could end up hearing a lot more from. If Trump's legal woes get the best of him, this garbage governor could end up being garbage president.

Voted.

Been doing election work for the past two weeks, and today was the finale.

One guy came to the voting place five minutes before closing, very happy he had made it, only to find out he had come to the wrong place. I almost cried.

Only one more day of this bullshit now. But first two well-needed days of rest.

(I kid of course. It's not bullshit. I'm just fed up and exhausted.)


The far right looks to be getting higher support than almost anywhere in Europe so, yay.