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by sparky_Archive
Handling Christmas and a horrendous busy season at work immediately after my fiancé broke up with me was tough. I did not handle it too well. I drank too much too frequently for a few months, and generally acted even more a fool than usual. My friends were by and large legends throughout, particularly considering this sudden switch from happy hippy to the miserable, moody adolescent of my student years. Obviously, better we broke up then rather than later, but I took it very badly.
I kept agreeing to take on new work far beyond my capacity, and I ended up regularly working into the wee hours due to this workload and the fact that I perversely pissed around all day until the gun was against my head. However, the sadness accelerated my creeping hatred of the job and how it made me feel. I reached a nadir that June whilst working 70-80 hour weeks on a terrible client, made the deadlines in various pieces, and decided then to start saving faster to do something I enjoy.
The weekend after next, I'm almost certainly going to meet her for the first time since we broke up at an absurdly posh wedding that I am ushering for. I feel quite anxious about this, which is disappointing. I might try to stay off the booze during the day. Wish I could bloody sleep though!
Edit: It goes without saying, having read some of the other entries here, I've been a spoiled child. Take care, all. x
Gib Opi kein Opium, denn Opium bringt Opi um!