i am fucking sad. all the time i am bothered in something all the fucking time. fuck it. it's nothing to be bothered - everybody tells me that ,but still i can't sleep because of this. when i stop think about that problem another will come and fuck. i think it's some kind of neurosis.

I am not depressed at the moment at all, but this is something that bothers me a lot and depresses me on occasion:

I never get laid.


Ever.

feeling awful lately, but i joined a gym today, and maybe next week, i plan on joining some place where i can punch and kick things.

that damned fly wrote:feeling awful lately, but i joined a gym today, and maybe next week, i plan on joining some place where i can punch and kick things.

you are on the right track with this. it sounds like some arnold schwarzenegger bullshit, but exercise is a pretty powerful anti-depressant. i'm a sad sack of crap most of the time, and i always feel a ton better about myself after riding my bike or shooting some hoop.

i know. there's a reason i've been working out half my life at this point.

Yeah I've been pretty down lately. Real lonely, too. I work at a job where I'm dealing with the terminally ill/elderly all day, so I always try to bring my A game for those guys, which helps, but off the clock I kinda feel like a mess sometimes.

What makes me happy -

my job.

buying cds. I don't have much of a life, which allows plenty of time for critical listening.

Thomas Pynchon's Mason and Dixon, which I'm reading very slowly.

Band practice! We practice once a week, usually during the day on the weekends. Band practices are in an old building downtown that has this weird stage setup. The room sounds good and there is no air conditioning. We play for four or five hours and then collapse.

my cat

hmmm

is this a good idea?

[EDIT: turns out I´m not very comfortable with this]

that damned fly wrote:feeling awful lately, but i joined a gym today, and maybe next week, i plan on joining some place where i can punch and kick things.

play some "shoot'em up" video game. it helps.

Piasek wrote:

that damned fly wrote:feeling awful lately, but i joined a gym today, and maybe next week, i plan on joining some place where i can punch and kick things.

play some "shoot'em up" video game. it helps.

I would honestly recommend exercise first. Nice one, TDF. Swimming has worked for me. After swimming for ages at a pathetically slow speed, I am usually too knackered to be bothered to feel down.

SecondEdition wrote:I am not depressed at the moment at all, but this is something that bothers me a lot and depresses me on occasion:

I never get laid.


Ever.

you know getting laid is totaly overrated anyway.......