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by ErickC
So, I've had more of a chance to collect my thoughts, and I am going to write some of them. They may be disorganized.
I haven't had much real-world contact with PRF folk, and I've only met Steve in person a couple of times, but I can't help but think about how Steve, and, by extension, the PRF, have had an outsize influence on my life in a bunch of different ways. I still remember listening to In Utero and wondering why it sounded so characteristically different from everything else I'd heard to that point. I was in my early 20s, and online reference materials circa 2006 or 2007 so were pretty primitive compared to what they are today, but I was able to read an article about how Steve's way of engineering a record had led to that sound, and how Nirvana had been heavily influenced by Surfer Rosa, and I guess I started down a rabbit hole of discovering bands and albums.
At that time, I had just barely gotten good enough on guitar that I was able to start writing my own songs, and, armed with some terrible drum samples, I set out recording them. And I think I'd been chasing that sort of sound since then. I spent a lot of time reading interviews, then later watching presentations Steve had done that ended up on YouTube, and I think I was just sort of awestruck at the simple, common-sense methods that Steve used, and I just absorbed as much of it as I could. I think it just made the idea of recording music seem so much more accessible. I remember the first time I recorded a "real" album with actual drums on it was when I recorded a project my brother and sister had made. I had the capability to use three microphones with the mic inputs on that computer, plus a USB microphone I was able to use as a room mic. I didn't have the capability to obsess about gear because I just didn't have money for gear, so I focused on the basics of sound recording principles, hit "record," and everything sounded good.
But it wasn't just the techniques that struck a chord with me. I had a huge control freak problem, and I think that I started on the path to being less Type A when I recorded that project. I provided some direction because my sister was new to recording and needed to find a process that was conducive to her, you know, remembering how the songs went, and part of that was making the decision that we'd use a click track and scratch guitar tracks so she wouldn't get lost, but, for the most part, I just did my best to stay out of the way and let things happen the way they needed to. I don't think I would have done things that way if I hadn't been exposed to Steve's philosophy on recording.
I dunno. I've only met Steve twice, at Shellac shows, and he always struck me as a warm, genuine person. I remember I was talking about him with a friend once, and all he could say was "Steve Albini is a cock." I can honestly say that my experience has been the opposite.
I remember, early on, getting into Big Black and reading some of the more provocative things Steve wrote, and I think that resonated with the angry, drunk ball of rage I was in my early 20s. I think, in my case, I fell into the kind of petty edgelord behaviour that a lot of young men use to cope with the world, especially those of us that never seemed to quite fit into it. Older, wiser me knows that this is the end result of living in a racist, sexist, patriarchal society that holds up a very narrow spectrum of white men as some kind of standard, but younger me was a dipshit and engaged in a lot of toxic behaviour.
And then Steve, the guy who wrote the cool, provocative shit I was reading, started talking about how maybe it wasn't so cool after all, and started holding himself accountable for his past behaviour in a really authentic way, and that kind of resonated with me. Around the same time, I was in the middle of my own coming to terms with the stupid crap I said. I guess it was kind of nice to see I wasn't the only one who had a lot to learn. I think a lot of people on here called me out for stupid crap I wrote, and I think Steve did a fair number of times, too. I also think that being here did a lot for my songwriting skills, mostly back when the songwriting challenge was still a thing. I sure got exposed to a lot of cool bands to check out.
So, yeah, my interactions with things Steve did and things adjacent to him and his studio has had a pretty profound effect on my life, not just in terms of how I make and record music, but also in terms of my own growth as a person into, I hope, slightly less of a dickhead.
A library burned to the ground this week. RIP Steve Albini.
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