A three game run from the Sox… so on the up. I’m becoming a bit obsessive now, as I always do with things.

On topic. I’m finally home and well past the worst. Steve’s passing happened while I had a setback and was back in the ward. After three weeks of the most brutal time of my life both physically and emotionally I’m not going to lie, I wept on multiple occasions. Everyday I get a little more energy feel a littler more normal. Today I cooked lunch for my kids for the first time since the transplant and on the 20th I’m going to try and work remotely. It’s three months of no treatment, no hospitals. Fingers crossed at the three month mark I’m clear and can relax for a while.

This afternoon I’m sorting out my little laptop studio and will buy the Alt Rock drum pack… salut Steve.

When I go there’s going to be pot on the stove.

Gramsci wrote: Sun May 12, 2024 7:57 am A three game run from the Sox… so on the up. I’m becoming a bit obsessive now, as I always do with things.

On topic. I’m finally home and well past the worst. Steve’s passing happened while I had a setback and was back in the ward. After three weeks of the most brutal time of my life both physically and emotionally I’m not going to lie, I wept on multiple occasions. Everyday I get a little more energy feel a littler more normal. Today I cooked lunch for my kids for the first time since the transplant and on the 20th I’m going to try and work remotely. It’s three months of no treatment, no hospitals. Fingers crossed at the three month mark I’m clear and can relax for a while.

This afternoon I’m sorting out my little laptop studio and will buy the Alt Rock drum pack… salut Steve.

When I go there’s going to be pot on the stove.

Weeping is to be expected, moving forward like you are is an achievement! Be kind to dad kids!
Way to go

Lost my dad to cancer almost a year ago. It was all so sudden and quick. From the initial diagnosis, he had another 6 months of life on this planet.

Colon cancer that spread to everything inside. I will never forget the process of him disappearing before me each and every time I saw him, and we saw each other at least three times a week, as I was his care taker and my mom was in a psychiatric facility due to her 30 years plus battle with her illness.

I saw him two days before he died, in a hospital bed, not saying anything but only managing to run a couple of tears down his cheeks. The image I will never forget as long as I live.

Still struggling every day with the fact that he's no longer here with me.

FUCK CANCER and everything that this fucker thinks he has a right to.

Lu Zwei wrote: Wed May 15, 2024 10:46 am Lost my dad to cancer almost a year ago. It was all so sudden and quick. From the initial diagnosis, he had another 6 months of life on this planet.

Colon cancer that spread to everything inside. I will never forget the process of him disappearing before me each and every time I saw him, and we saw each other at least three times a week, as I was his care taker and my mom was in a psychiatric facility due to her 30 years plus battle with her illness.

I saw him two days before he died, in a hospital bed, not saying anything but only managing to run a couple of tears down his cheeks. The image I will never forget as long as I live.

Still struggling every day with the fact that he's no longer here with me.

FUCK CANCER and everything that this fucker thinks he has a right to.

Really sorry to hear that you went though that. A friend's step-brother passed in similar fashion about a year back. Only went to see his doctor because he thought that he had mono.

Once it was clear that surgery/chemo would not change the outcome, all the doctors could do was try to keep him out of pain for that next year before he passed.

I’m so sorry Lu.


I have to admit I usually avoid this thread and sort of say a little prayer for whomever I see posting to it. Sometimes sickness and death feels like an unstoppable steamroller, but I know I have to take the time to smell the roses and let people know I see them and love them before we’re all mush. So I’m making myself check in and say hey Gramsci, I’m so sorry you have to deal with this, and I’m so glad that you get this three month break from treatment. I hope it turns into many more.

My love to all

tnx, guys!

Lu Zwei wrote: Thu May 16, 2024 2:00 amtnx, guys!

I lost my dad in a very similar way. Skin cancer on his ear got into his lymph system and just went gangbusters. He’d been very blasé about it on the phone. My aunt called me and said it’s serious get on a plane. I had a very complicated relationship with my dad, nothing bad he’d just been a typical man of his time. A business guy, come home, glass of whiskey Madmen style - not even an alcoholic just distant. He tried making up for it after my parents separated but I was checked out. But when I got there seeing the physical change really fucked with me. He was a big guy, athlete all his life, qualified for the Commonwealth Games cycling but got injured. Swam his whole life… the whole nine yards. He was shrunken down into a wheelchair… it was brutal. He died two days after I got home.

When I had my blood cancer diagnosis this immediately went through my head. Thankfully my clinician explained my condition was very different and more about long term management than what people imagine when they think of cancer. It will likely kill me before average life expectancy under current treatments but it’s about decade(s) not years. I was caught about 5-7 years before people normally are diagnosed, it’s an incredibly insidious disease.

Anyway. Cancer, fuck you.

My spouse's 2 year T-cell Acute Lymphoblastic Lymphoma/Leukemia Cancer-versary today and it can continue to fuuuuuuck off. Grabbed a single drink and some mocktails. Restarting Methotrexate on tuesday, yay.

TylerDeadPine wrote: Fri May 24, 2024 10:23 pm My spouse's 2 year T-cell Acute Lymphoblastic Lymphoma/Leukemia Cancer-versary today and it can continue to fuuuuuuck off. Grabbed a single drink and some mocktails. Restarting Methotrexate on tuesday, yay.

Cancer hasn't a prayer against that smile.

Keep going, you two.

TylerDeadPine wrote: Fri May 24, 2024 10:23 pm My spouse's 2 year T-cell Acute Lymphoblastic Lymphoma/Leukemia Cancer-versary today and it can continue to fuuuuuuck off. Grabbed a single drink and some mocktails. Restarting Methotrexate on tuesday, yay.

Being a dork I zoomed in on the menu. I hope one of you drank the Piss of Steel, a band I definitely want to go see.

Best vibes to you both.