I think I need to stop posting here. At this point I’m just using this forum as a place to vent my depression and anger at the world. I can’t remember the last time I made a post about music or anything good. I don’t want to be like this, I don’t want to spread my pain to others who barely even know me. I’m so much different offline when with my friends and loved ones, and here I’m just constantly upset about something. I’m so sorry to everyone that’s had to deal with me on here, I wish you could see other sides of me instead

Hex wrote: Sat Oct 26, 2024 6:09 amI’m so sorry to everyone that’s had to deal with me on here, I wish you could see other sides of me instead

Don't worry about it. It is what it is. Naturally, if you think it would be better for your peace of mind to stop posting then it might be a good idea. But fwiw you haven't burdened or annoyed me with anything.

Hex wrote: Sat Oct 26, 2024 6:09 am I think I need to stop posting here. At this point I’m just using this forum as a place to vent my depression and anger at the world. I can’t remember the last time I made a post about music or anything good. I don’t want to be like this, I don’t want to spread my pain to others who barely even know me. I’m so much different offline when with my friends and loved ones, and here I’m just constantly upset about something. I’m so sorry to everyone that’s had to deal with me on here, I wish you could see other sides of me instead

i'm glad you are here. if anyone is bothered by your posts (or anyone else's) they can use the foe or block function, or just stick to other threads.

i wish i had the right words, and i really wish people were kinder and more accepting. i hope you can find ways to be gentle to yourself, especially right now. hopefully this election will be over soon. i know there are a lot of hateful / ignorant people out there (and also a ton of bots), but there are also a lot of people who care and are rooting for you.
i hope you stick around, Hex.

Hex wrote: Sat Oct 26, 2024 6:09 am I think I need to stop posting here. At this point I’m just using this forum as a place to vent my depression and anger at the world. I can’t remember the last time I made a post about music or anything good. I don’t want to be like this, I don’t want to spread my pain to others who barely even know me. I’m so much different offline when with my friends and loved ones, and here I’m just constantly upset about something. I’m so sorry to everyone that’s had to deal with me on here, I wish you could see other sides of me instead

Your posts on the politics thread are always on point, but the topics are of course really stressful so I get it.

i want to die

Hex wrote: Wed Nov 06, 2024 2:55 pmi want to die

i can only imagine what you are going through right now. i'm sorry. sending love from here.

Hex wrote: Wed Nov 06, 2024 2:55 pmi want to die

You don't know me. I'm just some faceless stranger on the internet. To some people that means that anything said doesn't mean anything, and there is validity in that, to some extent.

But please believe me when I say that you have value.


I, for one, appreciate your input. It's always a benefit to society having as many perspectives as possible contributing to any debate or discussion.

I don’t really know what to say, like me and my loved ones are staring a horrific future in the face right in the face right now, one in which our access to life-saving medication is banned and where we can be arrested for simply dressing how we want in public or using a restroom and facing hellish prison experiences (look up v-coding). I don’t want to hear “stay alive”, i want real material help and action surviving under and fighting fascism. And the message I have been getting from nearly everyone other than other trans people in various places online has been “we’re sorry you’re going through this but we’re fully prepared to be bystanders to your genocide”. And like I get that no one wants to fight a losing battle, but like, how am I ever supposed to feel better under these conditions?

I can’t survive on “please don’t die”

I'm not going to say 'please don't die' because it's fucking trite and does you no good whatsoever, but I'm really fucking sorry you've been thrown under the bus so cruelly. It amounts to fuck all but believe me, I did a lot of thankless work in the hope this could be prevented for the most vulnerable in your society. I know a few others who did likewise. There is care out there.

I hope you get out of that fucking country. Start over somewhere new. Speak another language. Rebuild. Get that fucking place out of your system. It's hard I know - I've done it myself a few times - but fuck me it beats the alternative.

I am disabled with no income and no college degree. It is basically impossible for me to immigrate to another country, let alone with my entire family, who I absolutely could not leave behind. I’ve even looked into applying under asylum but most countries have agreements with the US that designate the country as “safe” (which is beyond absolute bullshit) and so people from here won’t even be considered