I know that feeling dude... it's the "can I please get off the escalator now please." part that gets me down sometimes. Just remember this doesn't define you and you won't always have down days.PASTA wrote: Fri Apr 25, 2025 6:57 pm Yesterday marked 1 year since we saw this recurrence in an MRI. In a couple weeks I will have been on my current treatment protocol for a year. Next scan in 3 weeks.
Goddamn, I grow tired of this being my reality, but it is.
I get ups and downs depending on my last monthly consultation. My main doctor is very dry and factual so when he gets animated and positive I know he means it. The last time I saw him he was telling me prognosis details that were super positive based on my post-one year biopsy. But this week I saw another doctor that is always a lot more negative when I ask questions. So I'm going to stop asking him anything beyond "how's the kappa light chain levels".
Currently I'm disease free, but the maintenance treatment can be really draining, so I really feel your "ugh". The fact you have to do this thing, is what gets me. I'm naturally "not a joiner" so being told I have to do anything gets me down. I'm starting a new job on Monday, a change that should be very positive. The only "ugh" is that the med team had told me I could move my fortnightly maintenance immunotherapy infusion to Saturday, but now they told me I can't. So I have to have a conversation with my new employer I was hoping I wouldn't need to have...
Ugh.