Re: Does an artist's behavior affect your ability to enjoy their music?
Posted: Thu Jun 03, 2021 1:13 pm
I agree that it's really situational and in a case by case basis, but he answer is a definite Yes. I'm going to get a bit personal... feel free to skip.
The one that is really challenging for me lately has been Mark Kozelek / Red House Painters. I loved his early stuff. It really hit me over the years, especially after moving to the Bay Area. It always made me wish I'd moved to San Francisco in the pre-cellphone, pre-internet-boom era... but I digress.
I read interviews and he always came off poorly. It was never enough to dissuade me from listening to the music. He was just a grumpy dude who seemed shitty to some people.
I forgot about them/him for years, and then the classical guitar album came out in 2010. I really loved that record. I was actually quite inspired by that record. And then I got some shitty stories from Bay Area friends about interactions over the years. More shithead behavior from musicians, engineers, and so on.
Then the flood of sexual misconduct and emotional manipulation stories came out. It's really bad, I can't say I'm surprised, and I fully believe it. It's so bad that when I hear the early stuff that was emotionally touching, it comes off as gross and makes me feel pretty bad for trying to get back in there and enjoy it. The song narratives take on new meanings and the content is getting reprocessed as coming from a sexual abuser.
Still, just last month one of those classical guitar songs from 2010 popped into my head. I went back and listened to parts of the album. The lyrics and his voice grossed me out, but I could still get useful stuff from studying the song structure and guitar playing. The musicality of the guitar playing still had beauty. But, even if it was an instrumental album, I would still feel gross just knowing the content of the character behind it. Maybe it's so strong because he's a contemporary, he's based out of a place that I lived and worked, and people I know have had first-hand experiences.
I can see how this can get messy for people.
The one that is really challenging for me lately has been Mark Kozelek / Red House Painters. I loved his early stuff. It really hit me over the years, especially after moving to the Bay Area. It always made me wish I'd moved to San Francisco in the pre-cellphone, pre-internet-boom era... but I digress.
I read interviews and he always came off poorly. It was never enough to dissuade me from listening to the music. He was just a grumpy dude who seemed shitty to some people.
I forgot about them/him for years, and then the classical guitar album came out in 2010. I really loved that record. I was actually quite inspired by that record. And then I got some shitty stories from Bay Area friends about interactions over the years. More shithead behavior from musicians, engineers, and so on.
Then the flood of sexual misconduct and emotional manipulation stories came out. It's really bad, I can't say I'm surprised, and I fully believe it. It's so bad that when I hear the early stuff that was emotionally touching, it comes off as gross and makes me feel pretty bad for trying to get back in there and enjoy it. The song narratives take on new meanings and the content is getting reprocessed as coming from a sexual abuser.
Still, just last month one of those classical guitar songs from 2010 popped into my head. I went back and listened to parts of the album. The lyrics and his voice grossed me out, but I could still get useful stuff from studying the song structure and guitar playing. The musicality of the guitar playing still had beauty. But, even if it was an instrumental album, I would still feel gross just knowing the content of the character behind it. Maybe it's so strong because he's a contemporary, he's based out of a place that I lived and worked, and people I know have had first-hand experiences.
I can see how this can get messy for people.