so far i'm the only dude/dudette to choose the "i dunno" option. (there are lot of other things i'm in limbo about too, btw. no, my sexuality isn't one of them.

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i have more to say on this subject, but i'm not depressed enough to write at length on a message board on a friday night (even in a room fulla guys screaming at the TV over the bulls & bullets). wait, i was just informed they are the wizzards now. "that's a gay name for a team," sez my friend from high school.
at any rate i always liked the following line from jonathan richmann's "affection":
people all over the world are good
people all over the world ain't bad
i believe this is true. in my late teens/very early twenties i learned this simply watching good films from all around the world. (not having had many opportunities to travel, i suppose it was the next best thing. i was also extremely depressed, and a little pimply.) plus there was that stereolab track "les yper sound" which always made perfect sense to my younbg ears.
perhaps though a poll along the lines of "are all americans idiots?" is in order. i kinda think we, as a collective, are. (my friend, a very smart computer science guy, just shouted at the tv again.)
i'm becoming a quiet dude. the thing i dug most about berlin was that most everybody was mellow and almost nobody bothered me. (no obnoxious poor people jealous of my sunglasses calling me a fag.

) i got this book a few weeks back chronicling the first fifty years of the international film festival berlin. the guy who did larry flint had a great obvservation, that the reason berlin has become such a great culutral epicenter is that, during the twentieth century, no other city in the entire world had a greater mixture of good and "evil" on its soil. this is one of the smartest things i've ever heard. europe has a much greater sense of history than the u.s. and ubdoubtedly this is linked to the fact that the arts are treated very respectably there. they give credit where it's due, at least in comparison to us, the states -- with england not far behind, what with its corresponding (global) americanization.
i guess the reason i'm so amped on the arts is that, more than anything else, they are a refuge for beautiful people who've lost their way. it's a way of dealing with any sort of poverty. i may be aman of strange ways and meager means, but if i'm a damn good artist, i've been vindicated. the same goes for you and anybody else. all you need is dedication and insight. by contrast the capitalist ontology closes its door, directly or indirectly. the weak may live, but under the most marginal of terms.
i am gay!
this is what my jocko friend from high school felt the need to type while i was speaking from the heart. sometimes he has no subtly. at all. i'm the same way really, but in a more artfag than jocko sense. hence our continuing bond. (i love my friends. it's really gonn a fuck me up when the first one dies. or maybe it'll make me a better person. or i'll just feel guilty more often from time to time, like i know i will when my parents croak.)
anyway, my main point here is that if art was more predominant and accessible (from day one), i honestly beleive we as a culture would be smarter. (i know that more artists would yield more miserable people, but having more art in one's peripherals would be a hell of a lot more stimualting that this exceedingly ugly culutral backdrop. and then there's the famous godard citation: that 100,000 italians went to go see antonioni's la notte; that, despite the unlikliness of this becoming a frequent occurance, there exists an inner need and appreciation for and of art in the hearts and minds of so-called average people. enough to justify the trouble. at any moment, it could happen again.
so there is something at stake afterall, i.e. we need to accomodate the arts and artists more and more as our lives grow increasingly absurd and (possibly) not worth living. there's that line in david bryne's true stories, "the early astronauts never read poetry. all that is changing." i believe that within this ideal lies our salvation. it will take a phase of art that acknowledges the underclass for this to happen though. being bourgeois and not "getting" art may become a future embarassment. hahaha.
anyway, i believe we're seriously headed toward extinction. that it's become more and more innately inherent that one becomes tragically dulled down by society by they time she has any real place in it.
if you were a doctor, and society was a reuglar patient, you might be worried about its future health, even as you push it away with another "have a nice day."