I wouldn't feel guilty about being triggered by modern and social media, it's designed to be addictive and enraging. Limiting or tuning it out completely (especially right now) is probably one of the best ways to support your mental health.

Yeah, man, I know it’s hard, but YouTube is social media essentially. The way they program that algorithm to feed you things that it thinks you like simply because you engage with them can be a pretty ferocious cycle. It’s really not good for the brain, most social media isn’t.

I’m not talking about the algorithm, all I want to do is watch these math and music videos and I’n getting bombarded by transphobic ads

Yeah I mostly watch drum nerd stuff or comedy clips and I see Charlie Kirk videos in my queue. All of these platforms suck and we'd all be better off using them less.

Echoing others' comments: the internet is a potential minefield of negative stimuli even outside of an election year. During one and, yeah, things could get choppy. About a week ago I was looking up some silly song on YouTube, something rather benign, and then Trump's mug flashed on the screen as he started addressing the camera. That's why it's good to keep one's computer/sound system on mute before whatever it is gets cued up. I find advertising in general to be unpleasant, even when it's for tire stores and barbecue sauce.

Hex wrote: Fri Oct 25, 2024 9:43 am I’m not talking about the algorithm, all I want to do is watch these math and music videos and I’n getting bombarded by transphobic ads

https://smarttube.app/

Hex wrote: Fri Oct 25, 2024 9:43 am I’m not talking about the algorithm, all I want to do is watch these math and music videos and I’n getting bombarded by transphobic ads

That's fucking awful. Are you using a browser and ad blockers? I somehow manage to block ads on YouTube on Firefox through some combination of plug-ins. Seems like I have AdBlocker for YouTube and Adblocker Ultimate activated for the site and I'm logged in to my Google/YouTube. Every six months or so I get blocked with a message that I have to deactivate the ad-blockers and then I wait it out and it goes away for whatever reason and I have ad-free access again. If you can't block the ads then maybe better to hold out for ten days, binge on something else maybe. Hang in there.

I unfortunately I can’t do it on my tv which is where I primarily watch YouTube

I fucking hate living in a world where the only peace of mind I have is if I put my head in the goddamn sand and never leave my home or get blasted out of my mind with drugs or otherwise distract myself from the seemingly countless horrors of this planet. I don’t want to be here, I hate it here. None of my dead friends have this problem, I feel like a total rube for buying into life as long as I have. But I can’t even get myself to end it, it’s torture trapped in this.

Update:
Am feeling better out of nowhere now. This is so frustrating, I don’t want my brain to be like this, constantly flipping back and forth from extreme depression

Update:
Back to wanting to kill myself even moreso

Every fucking day I have to block *at least* three dudes on grindr who completely ignore my stated boundaries and send me dick pics or other shitty messages. Every. Fucking. Day. How many of these assholes can possibly be in my city? My block list is nearing a thousand at this point. There’s people in my own apartment building who have done this to me, how the fuck am I ever supposed to not have depression and anxiety on this awful planet