Not meant to be a sad thread here, this is a place to share fun stories and memories of members who are no longer with us.

speedie wrote: Sat May 01, 2021 9:51 pm Not meant to be a sad thread here, this is a place to share fun stories and memories of members who are no longer with us.

I think I missed the little details from you day that bumble started. She needs to get on that shit as we p.

mrdfnle wrote: Sat May 01, 2021 10:28 pm

speedie wrote: Sat May 01, 2021 9:51 pm Not meant to be a sad thread here, this is a place to share fun stories and memories of members who are no longer with us.

I think I missed the little details from you day that bumble started. She needs to get on that shit as we p.

ASAP Stupid fat fingers and predictive text

Warmowski, Jake and Amanda all left this earth relatively recently. I have lost a few others too. I am sure most of you have as well. It's been a hell of a couple fucking years. Have a good time all the time, while you can.

Salut! To our fallen comrades!

Salut, and much love.

Forgive me, I don’t think I knew Jake outside of the forum - was that his username, or did he go by another?

I will miss Amanda. I will own up to the fact that I unfriended her on the other thing about 6 months before she passed, as she was getting (selfish me) unbearable.

BUT. we were chat buddies on MSN way back in the day, and she was always an engaging and worthy suck of my time.

I remember when she announced her first or second attempt at checking out of this mortal coil, calling her local police Dpt in the UK (From Australia) to get someone to check on her. Joe Lemur was also on board on that side of the world.

She was acerbic, smart as hell, and took no shit. She also had the cutest laugh around., we spoke on the phone quite a bit.

I know other FM's have a lot more history than I do, so have at it, my friends.

Salut! Mandroid 2.0!

sparky wrote: Tue May 04, 2021 2:24 am Salut, and much love.

Forgive me, I don’t think I knew Jake outside of the forum - was that his username, or did he go by another?

Hi Mark!

Jake was FM jacobwilliam on the forums. He was low-key here, just as in the real world, but he was a joy to get to know over the course of my yearly pilgrimages to BBQs and other PRF events. A genuinely kind and lovely man.

speedie wrote: Tue May 04, 2021 5:34 am I will miss Amanda. I will own up to the fact that I unfriended her on the other thing about 6 months before she passed, as she was getting (selfish me) unbearable.

BUT. we were chat buddies on MSN way back in the day, and she was always an engaging and worthy suck of my time.

I remember when she announced her first or second attempt at checking out of this mortal coil, calling her local police Dpt in the UK (From Australia) to get someone to check on her. Joe Lemur was also on board on that side of the world.

She was acerbic, smart as hell, and took no shit. She also had the cutest laugh around., we spoke on the phone quite a bit.

I know other FM's have a lot more history than I do, so have at it, my friends.

Salut! Mandroid 2.0!

I had not yet formed the words to say anything about this when the forum crashed. We spent years together, some good, some bad. I could never find a way to talk about it without bringing in my own shit, and that just didn't feel right at all.

Amanda embraced change and abhorred stasis. She wouldn't settle, neither physically nor ideologically. The curiosity to turn over every rock was strong in her. She wanted to create art and make music, and often did. However, it rarely seemed to meet her own standards so it was rarely shared with the world. When she was able, she would often change living locations. This sometimes involved changing her friend groups or burning the bridges that she crossed in her travels. When she was unable to explore, her mood could turn. She found herself in a situation where she regretted upending her life so many times, but also sad that she was unable to upend it again. Her life was a quest and, sadly, I don't think she ever found or maybe never truly knew what she was looking for.

The PRF was a place that saw the good in her, and I'm so grateful that we can remember that. I feel like we need to collaborate with our memories of her, because no one really had the whole picture. We don't need to figure her out, and I don't think we should try without permission. What we can do is assemble a good representation of the core of her character as she traveled through many of our lives, and remember how she added to the excitement and enthusiasm of existing in this community and this world.

night_tools wrote: Tue May 04, 2021 1:16 pmHi Mark!

Jake was FM jacobwilliam on the forums. He was low-key here, just as in the real world, but he was a joy to get to know over the course of my yearly pilgrimages to BBQs and other PRF events. A genuinely kind and lovely man.

Dear Tim! I have the warmest and punchiest feelings seeing you and the usual suspects back here. I know we have other places, but the forum is special.

Thank you for letting me know about FM Jake, jacobwilliam - love and condolences to you all close. He sounds like an ace chap.

Jake was a sweetheart and better than any of us. I regret not spending more time with him. We went to see Big Business and We Are Hex at the Beat Kitchen once years ago when I was in Chicago for a few nights. Just the nicest guy, up for some good music and good company. He was sober and I am not and while that is not a problem I end up not gravitating towards sober people too closely. I don't want my bad habits to knock them off their wagons. Being sober and staying that way is very important to some people, and it is not easy and I always support it 100%. I was really happy for him for doing that.

Amanda and I ended up exchanging personal messages on the forum, as she did with a lot of other members. We started chatting around 2005 or 2006 about food at first, and how she should be a chef or a gourmet baker. I don't think we ever talked on the phone, just PM's and IM's. I never met her until the 2014 Thundersnow when I offered to pick her up and drop her off since my route took me through Green Bay and we had never had the chance to meet. She sure tore through that weekend and ruffled a few feathers. It seems like we all became very concerned for her sobriety and health around then. We had all witnessed her be a little out of control. I was asked by more than one person to not bring her back the next year, not because no one loved her, but because everyone did and she wasn't healthy and taking care of herself.

It was a challenge to see her Facebook feed and watch her seem to constantly take two steps forward and three steps back. I don't think it was more of a challenge for anyone but her. We all got exasperated at her self destructiveness. She never seemed able to figure out how to help herself and keep helping herself. I don't know, I do not have much insight, I just know I watched her slowly self destruct over the last 8 years and feeling helpless to do anything.

Last summer a month or two before she died I had posted on facebook my phone number and for anyone to call me. The last 11 years have been lonely for me and the pandemic even more so. I was on the phone with another old friend when she called and I promised to call her back. She was fine, not distressed, just reaching out as a friend because I had asked for friends.

I never called her back. I am so sorry, Amanda. The least I could have done that day was call you back. Now you are gone forever and I will never be able to call you back. I am sorry. I just took it for granted that you'd be around. Salut old friend, and RIP. I love you. I miss you. I wish you were here.